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ATTACK OF THE NEW NOVEL!!!

I started a new novel about a week ago and no one is more surprised than I. 

For starters I’ve not been focused on writing of late. Most of my free time has been devoted to art or music. Some writing but only on existing stuff like the mythical 4th issue of Bunnyhead, a horror novel and writing for Igloo Magazine.

The main reason though has been due to my chronic clinical depression. Yes, I’m an artist suffering from depression. Ain’t that a surprise? But seriously I have it and it’s been better and worse depending on the time of day you ask. Heh. But it’s real and for whatever reason I’ve not been too interested  in it frankly. 

The pandemic was what kicked off my dry spell. My father’s death in late 2021 flattened me and I’ve spent the better part of the last two years grieving and recovering. Writing seemed to be the hardest thing to do in that period. Story ideas came and went but few made me feel like they needed to be written down. It was low on the list of priorities. I’ve been more focused on music of late so writing wasn’t where the muse went to either gift me or shit on me depending on how you look at it. 

About two weeks ago though a funny thing happened. I’d been thinking about a character in the horror novel I’m working on (sporadically I admit). And I had a revelation about them after wondering about that age old question one ponders when they write fiction: what makes this guy tick. 

Then all of a sudden it clicked, this thing that I’d been wrestling with suddenly came together. I wrote several thousand words of diary entries for them and they held up under the fierce scrutiny of the morning after. I edited, wrote more, edited again and wrote more. It was a good work and I looked forward to more.

A couple nights later I was watching tv with my wife and out of nowhere this idea hit me. I was surprised because it was later in the night and I was thinking more about sleep than anything else. But the idea stuck in my head. I tossed it over a bit as one does when this happens, wondering if it had legs or not. So I did what I often do and wrote some notes, basic premise and rough outline.

I did go to bed kind of excited because it had been so long since a story. The next morning it seemed good enough to write so I sat down and started typing. First chapter emerged pretty easily considering the writing muscles in the brain hadn’t worked in a while so there was some awakening of those. But the words came and after a bit I’d enough to write out a rough general outline of beginning middle and end then some more for a possible second book. 

Well then…

As I said no one is more surprised than I. The detail will remain with me for a while until it’s time. But writing’s continued apace and will until it’s either done or I’m sick of it. 

Next I’ll say about it you’ll either hear I’ve got a book deal or I’m self-publishing it. 

Until then stay away from the demons unless they’ve got pizza.

FRONTIERS CHAT

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On Monday Sept. 4 I did a livechat on Bandcamp during the FRONTIERS listening party. I’ve edited it for coherence. I hope it sheds some light on the music and me the music maker.

I will talk a little bit about what FRONTIERS is about. I’ll split it into the meaning, then the music, then the recording unless it’s still just me. Okay, so about the music itself. What I wanted to do was gather newer music I’ve been working on. My last 2 releases were of older - but still balls out awesome! - tracks. Since Jan ‘23 I’ve been working on both my recording and composing skills. Both have improved I believe.

I guess FRONTIERS is about 2 things: expanding your horizons and letting yourself groove. By that I mean allow yourself to explore and learn, educate and illuminate yourself. FRONTIERS for me encapsulates one of the few resolutions I’ve made at New Year’s Eve and kept. And that was to get out of my own way. So that I could explore the frontiers.

With SUBTLE DISTINCTIONS I created something a bit lighter and peppier than my usual stuff. I hope. I think that’s what the EP is about to be honest. HOPE. It’s something I’ve not had a lot of lately. But over the course of this year things improved immensely and it seems like maybe there’s some sunlight up ahead.

What the songs on FRONTIERS have in common is they’re all pretty upbeat, brighter in sound. I’ve been working on more space in my recordings and FRONTIERS is the newest and best example of that.

My tracks have always had a lot going on tho I came to realize they were sometimes muddy and unclear. I actually discovered that driving back from my sister-in-law’s funeral in February. I was playing tracks for my wife on the drive back and half of them sounded muddy with a lot of the highs lost.

Of course a 2018 Subaru Forester isn’t a great listening environment but it still sounded blech. When I got home I listened on my studio monitors and read up online and came to realize that I needed to up my recording game. So I did and I’m happy to say that not only I think they sound better but my beta listeners all agree they do.

“Modal Auxiliary” is a great example of a lot of soundscaping and sound bed taking up space while the actual melodic/harmonic/ percussive stuff is up front. It was fun to craft it to mix the more ambient soundscape parts with the melodic ones. I reeeeeaaaaallly love how the last half of the song is pretty much just audio sludge.

SOMETIMES I do wonder if my outros are too long but that’s what my beta listeners are for. They’ll tell me if it is too long. And you can blame Autechre for that. After decades of their long, deconstructed endings it’s one of my favorite things to do. Oh man that ambience at the end always gets me.

“So CRT what’s up with your titles?”

Great question! OUTPATIENT is sort of about my time in an outpatient program. hence the name. Now that was a fun one, too, because the main synth parts are almost all Arturia plugins. The Buchla Music Easel is especially wild. 

This and INSECURITY can best be summed up as inspired by Meat Beat Manifesto. I got sick of A/B comparing my songs to MBM songs. I thought I was doing everything right but they still sounded weak. So I went to the woodshed so to speak (the real one is full of spiders), studied and I think this track and INSECURITY both slap about 60% as much as an MBM track.

Okay 50% but still I just want to make big bangers sometimes ya know? Boom bapp beats, dub delays, noisey shit! What’s funny to me is how all it takes is a little extra time and a little tweaking and then BOOM the track just opens up! Long ago a friend said it’s all about panning & EQing which I came to find is 2 out of 3. I’d say the 3rd part of that is gain staging.

It’s more technical than I want to get into now but it’s made all teh difference in my mind. About ½ way through OUTPATIENT there’s a big long ambient part that I sometimes wondered was too long. Now I think it works as a break between the two parts. A… frontier if you will.  After 6 minutes in the track is basically a long slow fadeout lol I love how it all combines into this weird, glitchy thing where all the loops go in and out then come together. The noise gets big and brash then slowly washes out. The last 2 minutes are a nice bit of ambience themselves. I even thought about breaking it into 2 tracks but they don’t work either alone or as a shorter track. You need to hear the whole damn thing to get the entire idea. Imagine being only shown one square foot of the Sistine Chapel at a time? Okay my work isn’t on the par of Michelangelo but you get what I mean.

Now INSECURITY was actually never supposed to be on an album. It’s a track I started then used as my guineau pig for teaching myself about recording. And in the end it ended up sounding pretty dope. When I sequenced this ep I was surprised how well it worked with the other tracks.

And that beat is straight up MBM. Boom boom bapp! Well kinda.  I have become obsessed with one section of this song at about 4:15. This break came out so smooth. Last for almost a minute. Almost as funky as Funky Drummer! And the buildup after works nice too I think.

I will say I’m considering 2 followups to FRONTIERS. One will be a remix and the other will be an ep exploring what separates frontiers… Well I hope I’ve enjoyed learning a bit more about FRONTIERS and my methods. Or madness. 

- CRT

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FRONTIERS - new album!

New album alert!

FRONTIERS is a 4 track ep of boom bapp inspired bangers. Definitely sounds best on loud soundsystems. Catch some snippets here then head on over to Bandcamp to pick it up!

Also I’ll be hosting a FRONTIERS LISTENING PARTY on Monday Sept. 4, 2023 at 4PM EDT. So if you’re in the states listen at work and if you’re elsewhere hang out with us before bed or as a nightcap! RSVP here!

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News & Events Summer 2023

Hello and howdy!

Hope all are well. Here in the US Northeast it’s been gray, rainy and muggy. Great weather for Thailand or Guatemala not so much Maine. Well the plants are growing and there’s little chance of forest fires. But you didn’t come here for the weather did you?

You may have noticed a bit fewer releases coming from me and Condition Human. Not that you were worried but there’s no cause for concern. Put simply it’s intentional. At the beginning of the year I thought about what I wanted to do in the coming year; what I wanted to accomplish in my musical life as well as life in general. The overriding result was “to get out of my own way.” That’s unfolded in a number of ways both unexpected and somewhat terrifying. It’s been a fascinating process and I feel that I’ve grown as a human as well as an artist.

Musically it meant a number of things one of which was to throw out old ideas and learn: learn new gear, new methods & techniques, learn how to play more from my body, mind & soul more than anything else. And it’s happening. I think you’ll find the results evident in upcoming releases.

Speaking of which…

Some cool stuff I’m involved in has come out recently that I think you’ll dig. First and foremost is my collaboration with Solypsis entitled CATHOPSIS. I’m really proud of this as it’s a big departure from my usual music and the first collaboration with another musician in a long time. It’s safe to say it drew James and I out from our respective shells into some very interesting and unexpected territory. It’s also the first physical release of my music in 200 - I’m sorry - 20+ years and that’s rad. You can get it now on Component Recordings!


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And coming up in September is my album THE EXPEDITIONS on Heterodox Recordings. I’m so excited about this for a number of reasons. It’s the final album in a current cycle while also being the first where I’m taking things to another level. I hope this comes through in the hearing of it when it drops in September. It’s a heavy one in many ways (what of mine isn’t? lol) while it’s also a bridge to the next level. And it’s out on Heterodox Recordings run my my friend Ramon Mills (aka Production Unit Xero) with artwork by the visionary genius that is Mattia Travaglini (who is also the boss of Viral Conspiracy Records in Italy).

There’s more to come in the Fall so keep an eye out for that!

Peas out!

  • CRT

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Some Florida students are opting to skip class for part of Friday, choosing to learn a banned history lesson instead.
Hundreds of high school and college students across the Sunshine State are walking out of classrooms as part of a protest organizers say is against the state government’s censorship and erasure when it comes to race and gender identity in education.
At noon, they’ll check their voter registration status, send a letter to local school board members and Republican Gov. Ron DeSantis pledging they’ll use their vote to defend students’ rights, and take part in a five-minute banned history lesson that will focus on censorship and historic figures in Black and LGBTQ history.
It’s all part of Walkout 2 Learn: a youth-led statewide walkout and rally in defiance of Florida’s crackdown on lessons surrounding race and Black history along with a string of anti-LGBTQ laws that are impacting students.
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The How and Why Wonder Book of Sound (1962) Written by Martin L. Keen with illustrations from G. J. Zaffo.

These were a great resource for kids and we had plenty of the series in my home growing up. The books are still fun to read and the art is classic. For some of the books I expect the science as it was known then should be approached with a critical eye as new discoveries and understanding would require new learning.